Katharine with an A Equals Lu with no O

Another silly quiz for you. I’m not a fan of OkCupid.com, but this one particular quiz (HT: SistaSmiff) looked so interesting on Sista’s site that I had to put up with the crazy "sign in/sign up" crap (did not at all remember my password!) so I could see what the results of my own personal Classic Dames Quiz would look like. I gotta say, I’m very pleased. If I could pick one person from Hollywood’s past to emulate, it’d be Katharine Hepburn. Not just her style and class (though for some reason this quiz said she nor I had any class at all. Bah. Ridiculous!), but also her wit, intelligence, and independence.

I’m amazed that she was able to live her life on her terms, never marrying (though privately — or not so privately — carrying on a long-term affair with the married but separated Spencer Tracy), and never — as far as I know — seen as a freak (or rumored to be lesbian, as is sadly the case today for any single woman over a certain age), nor ever even giving a damn whether she was seen as a freak by society. She was practical, witty, intelligent, classy, talented, independent, and beautiful. How can you beat that combination?

I wish that it were true that Katharine-with-an-a equals Lu-with-no-o, but I can only hope and pray that someday I on my best day will have even half of what Kate had on her worst.

Lord, be merciful and kind and let me be my own version of a Katharine Hepburn; leaving a spiritual legacy as powerful and dynamic as was Katherine’s film and cultural one.

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You are the fabulously
quirky and independent woman of character. You go your own way, follow
your own drummer, take your own lead. You stand head and shoulders next
to your partner, but you are perfectly willing and able to stand alone.
Others might be more classically beautiful or conventionally
woman-like, but you possess a more fundamental common sense and
off-kilter charm, making interesting men fall at your feet. You can
pick them up or leave them there as you see fit. You share the screen
with the likes of Spencer Tracy and Cary Grant, thinking men who like
strong women.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

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You scored higher than 26% on grit
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You scored higher than 94% on wit
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You scored higher than 58% on flair
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You scored higher than 0% on class

Check it out and see which Classic Dame you are. But  be warned, OkCupid.com insists you sign up before it will give you your results (it’s free). Frustrating, but worth it if you’re into this crazy stuff.

Trying Something New

I’m trying a different approach to my longer posts: I’m posting the introduction to these longer posts up front but then continuing the post "after the jump," as they say. All you  need to do to read the rest of the post is click on the "continue reading" link at the bottom of the introduction.

I thought I’d do this to save a little space on my pages, and to save you the pain of finding the end of my long posts so you can read the next one in line. Also, if the introduction doesn’t pique your interest, you can just move on (but I hope you won’t!) rather than read the rest of the post.

I’d really like know what you think; if you like it, or would rather have the whole post on the front page.

UPDATE: I’m working on getting my feedburner, and various feeds, to publish full posts rather than a quick summary — huge apologies to all my subscribers out there [all 3 of you! 😉 ]; I didn’t realize I had Feedburner only posting 200 characters. What the…??? — I’ve changed feedburner already (Typepad was already set to feed full posts), but I don’t know how long it takes for it to cycle through all the feeds. I know Bloglines now gets full posts but so far I haven’t been able to get GR to follow suit. So let me know if you use Google Reader and can read this entire post. Thanks! (and special thanks to Joe Kennedy for buying me a clue!)

Atmosphere, Ethos, and Communing with God

My friend Marti left a very thought-provoking comment on my previous post about Creative Chaos or Quiet Reverence that really sparked some memories. I started to share these with her in the comment section, but decided they deserve a post of their own.

First, let me share with you what Marti wrote:

My church meets in an old warehouse, or anyway, the anchor to a defunct
shopping center. It was ugly. The old-timers kind of liked that, as it
harkened back to the day when they moved from one school to another…
they didn’t want things too nice. Nobody EVER got married there. After
we paid off the mortgage, fixed the leakin’ roof, etc, God provided a
major donor who gave a $1 million anonymous gift with no strings
attached. The mission committee got a tithe of it, which was cool, and
a lot of other good stuff happened too. Sadly, giving dropped; this was
about five years ago and we’ve yet to recover. However, somewhere in
there the elders decided to use part of ‘the big taco’ (as the $1
million was affectionately called) to build a new sanctuary inside out
building. It feels like a living room. It has niches for prayer. It has
pretty, ivory-colored walls. I was glad we didn’t spend all our money
on this, but it helps to have a comfortable, attractive environment. It
makes a difference. So does our new worship leader, and particularly,
his adorable wife with the great voice who leads our singing most
Sunday mornings. We sound great with her leading us. And she can do new
stuff, old stuff, in-between stuff just as well. I’m glad God gives us
so many ways to worship.

As I read her comment, especially when she began describing her church’s current set up,  IMosaic_sign was reminded of the last six or so months of our old church plant here in Nashville (before it was decided the plant would merge with an already established Mosaic in town). We
revamped it after a jolting shift in our leadership, and part of the revamp was to completely change our approach to our "service" time. Instead of coming at it from a typical worship service mind-set, formatting it with music and then teaching, we instead approached it as if it were a giant Life Group (small group, or cell group; some now call them Community Groups). This one change in focus changed the whole dynamic and
feel of our times together, and opened the door for God to dwell among and within us at an ever deepening level. (please note this post continues after the jump — see below)

The Writing on the Heart

You yourselves are our letter, written on our hearts, known and read by everybody. You
show that you are a letter from Christ, the result of our ministry,
written not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God, not on
tablets of stone but on tablets of human hearts. 2 Corinthians 3:2-3

I love listening to podcasts. I have several pastor/teachers that I love learning from through their sermon or talks; Rob Bell, Matt Chandler, Naeem Fazal, and of course, Erwin McManus. I used to take tapes and cds of Erwin’s messages when I was going to be away from Mosaic for any length of time; I took some with me to India — where I listened to them so often I nearly had them memorized — and also to Cyprus, where I tried to "ration" them by listening to only one a week (over and over, of course). Even when I was at Mosaic I would get the sermon on cd and listen to it as I drove to work and back. I’ve found with Erwin — with all these guys, actually — that I learn even more on the third and fourth listening. I get so caught up in the initial things God speaks to me through their words that I miss other things. Repeated listening helps me catch what I missed earlier.

I’ve been going through Erwin’s sermons on the billboards of LA, and today I listened to the latest (perhaps last?) in the series, entitled, "Don’t Read Billboards." One thing he said that struck me hard was that we are always writing our stories on the hearts of those around us, those closest to us. How we live and who we are, and who we are becoming–who we are striving to become– impacts those around us in such a way that it gets written on their hearts about us, and about the God we worship. Our lives are the best billboards there are; the human conversation, living and breathing and communicating messages, whether we know it or not. It really got me to thinking, what story of mine is being written on the hearts of those around me?

For some I think it’s a positive one; one of striving for emotional and spiritual health, moving from unhealthy, even diseased, toward wholeness and recovery. But for others, I know I am writing a vastly different story. (please note this post continues after the jump — see below)

Creative Chaos versus Quiet Reverence

Los has this series he does on Thursdays called Creative Chaos, where he talks a little aboutBuckhead_worship
what his church (Buckhead, in the ATL; photo copyright Buckhead Church) does in their worship times, or planning times, etc. Then he invites others to post about what creative chaos is happening in their worlds and also provides a way they can link their posts to his on his blog. It’s really cool to read because you get a feel for all the creative madness going on out there in Worship Leader Land. I highly recommend it, even if you’re not a leader.

Today he posted a kickin’ video that you just gotta watch. But do yourself a favor, put your headphones on and crank the sound. It. Is. Awesome!!

Aside from the sound, the visual overload of the video, both from the screens and the constantly shifting camera angles, took me on a little ride. It was good, but I realized something the first time I watched. While I’d love to participate in something like that for a worship concert — where it’s just singing and music and some prayer (accompanied by music); just worship — I’m not sure I’d want to "do church" like that every week.

Small_churchI’m realizing more and more that I long for some of the old — dare I say it? — traditions; the quiet reverence, the sacraments, the sort-of high church feel. I’d probably tire of it after a bit; I don’t think I’m by nature a quiet, calm, traditional worshiper. But for some reason, right now my soul craves that. I crave a chance to sit silently in a sanctuary, get on my knees with others, and take communion in community in the midst of such a holy-feeling place. I will probably shock some with this statement, but sometimes meeting in a movie theatre does, for me, take some of the awe and reverence from the worship experience. If I weren’t such an aesthetic person perhaps that wouldn’t be so, but I am. So I struggle with the environments I find myself in during worship services, and sometimes they just don’t fit with what my spirit is craving.

What about you? What kind of worship services do you like? Is aesthetics, your surroundings, important to you, or doe it not effect you?

It’s Snowing!!

These are taken with my phone because the batteries in my camera suddenly decided to go kaput right after I turned it on tonight (and I don’t have any freshly recharged batteries). The first (and probably only) major snow event of Winter 2008. We’ve even had thunder! Cuh-razee weather!

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For those of you who live in snowy locations, you gotta understand a couple of things.

First, this the South. We don’t get snow, as a general rule. Or at least not much more than the occasional flurry or light dusting, so anything more than 1/60th of an inch is waaaay too much for us to handle.

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Second, I’m still a California girl at heart. I’m so very fascinated by
weather of any kind that I’m as giddy as a kid at Christmas whenever it
rains, thunders, or snows. To have all that in one evening, way too
cool!! Way. To. Cool!!

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So naturally I’m gonna take lots of pictures of this amazing and beautiful thing called snow. And, of course, I have to prove I was actually there and not just cribbing someone else’s pics.

Happy Winter Snow Day, everyone!

Changing Worldviews

A few days ago someone connected to my blog through the "Religion" category; one that I seldom use because so few things in my life seems to fall under the idea of straight religion. Rather things fall, in my mind at least, more under issues of faith, or Faith.

I often am curious what impressions first-time visitors to my site have, so sometimes I follow the link they did to my site just to see what they saw. The last post I put under that category was from January 2006, about a little quiz on theological worldviews. At that time I scored 82% as an Emergent/Post Modern. But Evangelical Holiness/Wesleyan, was a very close second. So I decided to retake the quiz and see if much had changed. It has, and you can see the results below.

There is still much in the first quiz results with which I agree. I still believe that the Gospel is spread "virally" through relationship more than through "evangelization" and revivals. And I still feel alienated from some older forms of church; chiefly the forms that conjure images of the 40s and 50s, where women have a limited role, men dominate, doctrine and tradition prevail over spirituality and Truth, and where the preaching is either overly dramatic (hellfire/damnation stuff) or overly monotone (and usually focused on exegesis alone) and always in that preacher cadence (you know the one I mean; I swear, they must have a class in seminary just for developing that). I have an allergy to such churches even today.

However, I now find myself with some different priorities. I still am convinced that we followers of Christ have the secret to Abundant Life, and that it is imperative that we share it with everyone who will listen to us. But I find that the essence of what I am compelled to share, and the thing that compels me, is the unbelievable, unfailing love and grace of God. That grace is, to me, preeminent in this thing called Life. It covers us long before we even recognize God’s whispers of love or His constant activity in and around us. It is what covers our sin, drives us to our knees in sorrow and repentance, and breathes fresh Life in us to try again. God’s Grace is what fuels and drives our personal holiness; without it I am convinced we could not be holy; without it we cannot give grace to others when they fail or hurt us.

I’m not theologically or doctrinally trained so I cannot speak much to those issues — the extent of my knowledge comes a little from my dad’s  old Barclay commentaries and my own Matthew Henry commentaries, and a lot from the various teachings of several pastors and teachers (such as Beth Moore, Erwin, Matt Chandler, and Rob Bell) who resonate with my spirit  and my own and others’ experiences with God Himself. But what little I have read on John Wesley’s teachings and focus resonate within my spirit. It is much of what I have come to believe myself. "Methodism" (ie the Methodist church) of today not so much (at least what I know of it), but what I’ve seen of what Wesley said back then I like.

I’m interested in reading more on Wesley’s teachings but I don’t know where to look. So if any of you seminary trained (or just knowledgeable) people out there can recommend books I could read on Wesley’s teachings and writings, please let me know.

   

What’s your theological worldview?
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You scored as Evangelical Holiness/Wesleyan 

You are an evangelical in the Wesleyan tradition. You believe that God’s grace enables you to choose to believe in him, even though you yourself are totally depraved. The gift of the Holy Spirit gives you assurance of your salvation, and he also enables you to live the life of obedience to which God has called us. You are influenced heavily by John Wesley and the Methodists.

         

Evangelical Holiness/Wesleyan

         

82%

Emergent/Postmodern

         

54%

Reformed Evangelical

         

54%

Neo orthodox

         

46%

Roman Catholic

         

32%

Classical Liberal

         

25%

Charismatic/Pentecostal

         

25%

Modern Liberal

         

21%

Fundamentalist

         

21%

   

I am…

I am Elinor Dashwood!

Take the Quiz here!

You Are…Elinor Dashwood of Sense & Sensibility! You are practical, circumspect, and discreet. Though you are tremendously sensible and allow your head to rule, you have a deep, emotional side that few people often see.

Yeah, I can see this (yes, I do realize it’s just a silly Internet quiz that means nothing).

There was a time when I would have been horrified by such an estimation — I’d rather be Elizabeth Bennett, Emma Woodhouse, or even Marian Dashwood; someone more passionate, full of life, vibrant. But upon deeper thought, no, I don’t think I would like that (though I would love to have my own personal Mr. Knightly!). Marian is unrealistically romantic, Emma a little too impulsive, and Elizabeth a bit too prideful. If I had to pick an Austen hero that most reflects me, Elinor does come closest.

I’m not all head, but I do often lead with my sensible side rather than with my passionate side. I have realized this with clarity the last few weeks, as I watched a friend make choices with her heart that I worry are unwise; choices I would never touch with a ten-foot pole. Their wisdom will eventually reveal itself, and even if they are unwise, she will be fine and life will go on. But as I watched events unfold I saw all too clearly my strong leaning to be sensible, prudent, cautious.

Yet there are times when my passions and emotions rule. Usually they come spilling out of me, or exploding out as the case may be, in giant waves that overtake me and leave me breathless. Probably because I don’t let them come out and play often enough — though I am learning to change that, to feel my feelings as they come, even if I still do not let them lead me.

Perhaps that’s why I see some truth in this silly little quiz. Because I think I am like Elinor. It’s amazing how her sensible side protected her from so many things,
including love, sadly; until she allowed herself to admit she felt it, and needed it. And she, too, eventually learned to let her feelings out, to feel them and acknowledge them even as she still refused to let them lead her choice.

Truth can be found in the oddest places.

The God I Worship

Some days are just hard. I’ve had a couple of weeks of them. I needed to be reminded today of just Whom it is that I belong. Maybe you’ve had a few rough days recently too. If so, I share this cool drink of Water God gave me this afternoon.

Isaiah 40

Comfort for God’s People

1 Comfort, comfort my people,
       says your God.

2 Speak tenderly to Jerusalem,
       and proclaim to her
       that her hard service has been completed,
       that her sin has been paid for,
       that she has received from the LORD’s hand
       double for all her sins.

3 A voice of one calling:
       "In the desert prepare
       the way for the LORD;
       make straight in the wilderness
       a highway for our God.

4 Every valley shall be raised up,
       every mountain and hill made low;
       the rough ground shall become level,
       the rugged places a plain.

5 And the glory of the LORD will be revealed,
       and all mankind together will see it.
       For the mouth of the LORD has spoken."

6 A voice says, "Cry out."
       And I said, "What shall I cry?"
       "All men are like grass,
       and all their glory is like the flowers of the field.

7 The grass withers and the flowers fall,
       because the breath of the LORD blows on them.
       Surely the people are grass.

8 The grass withers and the flowers fall,
       but the word of our God stands forever."

9 You who bring good tidings to Zion,
       go up on a high mountain.
       You who bring good tidings to Jerusalem,
       lift up your voice with a shout,
       lift it up, do not be afraid;
       say to the towns of Judah,
       "Here is your God!"

10 See, the Sovereign LORD comes with power,
       and his arm rules for him.
       See, his reward is with him,
       and his recompense accompanies him.

11 He tends his flock like a shepherd:
       He gathers the lambs in his arms
       and carries them close to his heart;
       he gently leads those that have young.

12 Who has measured the waters in the hollow of his hand,
       or with the breadth of his hand marked off the heavens?
       Who has held the dust of the earth in a basket,
       or weighed the mountains on the scales
       and the hills in a balance?

13 Who has understood the mind of the LORD,
       or instructed him as his counselor?

14 Whom did the LORD consult to enlighten him,
       and who taught him the right way?
       Who was it that taught him knowledge
       or showed him the path of understanding?

15 Surely the nations are like a drop in a bucket;
       they are regarded as dust on the scales;
       he weighs the islands as though they were fine dust.

16 Lebanon is not sufficient for altar fires,
       nor its animals enough for burnt offerings.

17 Before him all the nations are as nothing;
       they are regarded by him as worthless
       and less than nothing.

18 To whom, then, will you compare God?
       What image will you compare him to?

19 As for an idol, a craftsman casts it,
       and a goldsmith overlays it with gold
       and fashions silver chains for it.

20 A man too poor to present such an offering
       selects wood that will not rot.
       He looks for a skilled craftsman
       to set up an idol that will not topple.

21 Do you not know?
       Have you not heard?
       Has it not been told you from the beginning?
       Have you not understood since the earth was founded?

22 He sits enthroned above the circle of the earth,
       and its people are like grasshoppers.
       He stretches out the heavens like a canopy,
       and spreads them out like a tent to live in.

23 He brings princes to naught
       and reduces the rulers of this world to nothing.

24 No sooner are they planted,
       no sooner are they sown,
       no sooner do they take root in the ground,
       than he blows on them and they wither,
       and a whirlwind sweeps them away like chaff.

25 "To whom will you compare me?
       Or who is my equal?" says the Holy One.

26 Lift your eyes and look to the heavens:
       Who created all these?
       He who brings out the starry host one by one,
       and calls them each by name.
       Because of his great power and mighty strength,
       not one of them is missing.

27 Why do you say, O Jacob,
       and complain, O Israel,
       "My way is hidden from the LORD;
       my cause is disregarded by my God"?

28 Do you not know?
       Have you not heard?
       The LORD is the everlasting God,
       the Creator of the ends of the earth.
       He will not grow tired or weary,
       and his understanding no one can fathom.

29 He gives strength to the weary
       and increases the power of the weak.

30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
       and young men stumble and fall;

31 but those who hope in the LORD
       will renew their strength.
       They will soar on wings like eagles;
       they will run and not grow weary,
       they will walk and not be faint.

Still

I found this several months ago on someone else’s blog (don’t remember who’s now) and stole it because I liked it so much. Then I got busy with that crazy math class stuff and forgot about it. Till tonight. When I decided to clean out my blog’s draft posts and rediscovered it. So I present to you now, My Still List. Feel free to steal it for your own blog, or leave your list in the comments.
Still Loving: Jesus, living in Nashville, and my car (all of them are more amazing and awesome than HDTV!!)

Still Not: liking math

Still Glad: I stepped off the high dive. Life is hard, but so good.

Still Enjoying: my couch (yes, I’m a not-so-closet couch potato; I love my couch!)

Still Doing:  the next right thing, and the next right thing… one step at a time, one day at a time, as God gives me insight.

Still Proud: to be my parent’s daughter; and of my friends, and who they are becoming

Still Amazed: that Life could be this incredibly good.

Still Hoping: that my future will be better than my past

Still Grateful: for everything God has given me — it’s massive!

Still Wanting: to lose the weight I gained the two years I was on anti-depressants

Still Trying: to be polite and kind to the obnoxious people in my life

Still Failing: to not run away and isolate sometimes, when things get hard and the feelings become overwhelming

Still Passionate About: international travel and learning about new cultures; I really, really, really miss traveling overseas!

Still Taking up new things: to worry about. I learned to worry from my mom and haven’t been able to break the habit yet. But I’m hopeful.

Still Dating: myself… every stinkin’ time I open my mouth.

Still Have Not: learned to rock-climb, which I’ve been wanting to do since I moved to Nashville, lo these three years ago.

Still Working: yep. That’s about it. Haven’t become independently wealthy yet. When I do you’ll be the.. well, third or fourth to know.

Still Reading: The Harry Potter series, and about four other books I can’t seem to find the time to finish.

Still Thinking: Our country is in deep doo-doo, but, still, we will survive. It won’t be pretty or pleasant, but we’ll make it through.

Still Wondering: why God created cockroaches. I mean, really, what purpose do they serve, other than grossing me out? — Or are they a product of The Fall? Along with sin we got cockroaches… lovely.

Still Dressing: myself. That’s a good thing… right?

Still To Do: homework-homework-homework

Still Cherishing: my amazing sister, my wonderful friends, and my Beloved Jesus

Still Trying to Never: give up, or give in to fear.

Still Will Aways: Be utterly amazed at God’s unfailing love, unending grace, and unbelievable power — all given to me of all people (!!) as free love-gifts. Talk about the ultimate Valentine’s present!

Still, Still: I need to just be still before God and listen. I don’t spend near enough time just being quiet and still before Him. But those times when I do I realize I need to do that more. I feel more refreshed and ready to take on the (rest of the) day. Yet I still too often forgo that time in favor of sleeping a little later, reading a book, watching television or doing homework.

"Be still, and know that I am God;
       I will be exalted among the nations,
       I will be exalted in the earth."
    Psalm 46:10