You ever feel like there’s so much stuff in your head that it’s all just one big jumbled mess? Lordy, I need my mind defragged. Clean up all the partially deleted crap and consolidate everything in more orderly…. something…

Last night I had a great evening getting to know some new friends, Jason and Cully. God just keeps blessing me with new people in my path. These two are gems! Incredibly talented and passionate people. Jason’s working on a worship cd and a follow up project, both of which really stirred my soul. I don’t care if he never pays me, I’d work for him forever for free — if I could afford it — just to be a part of this upcoming project. I offered… we’ll see if he takes the bait. I sure hope so!

Since last night, so many thoughts have been zooming around my brain so fast that I can’t hardly catch up with them. Most of these revolve around the risk of freelancing for some of Jason’s friends in the music business (if they’ll have me) and working Starbuck’s-type jobs to fill in the financial gap versuses the stability of finding a regular, full time job. Do I live on the edge, or settle for boredom and security? And if I choose the edge, will God continue to provide?

Passion. Jason is following his. Leading worship is where he feels most alive. I feel the same about mixing for worship and being involved in coordinating worship events. Just like with coming here to Nashville, the more I think about what he’s doing, the more I want to be involved in it… somehow….

Life on the edge calls to me. But my fear has me temporarily frozen…. What if I fall? Will God catch me?